Monday, September 19, 2011
is there really something wrong with me?
im just wondering. why do i easily get hurt? or should i rephrase that... why am i prone to getting hurt? Mark Gungor's teachings said that 'perfect people' tend to get hurt all the time. and im thinking along the same line. but 'perfect people' don't ask to be that. i think they wish to be normal bcoz being perfect just comes with the contract of being hurt all the time! 1st its family then its BGR then its work then...? well i hope it stops there coz i don't wish for the list to never end. It doesn't mean i wasn't blogging that i was happy-go-lucky most of the time. But just as i get to feel the lightness of the thing called happiness, the darkness of the devil took it away. just like that. a snap of the fingers and its gone! i then kept pondering and wondering what happened and why it happened. somehow i just can't get the answer be it from myself or the other party. this is when 'if only' comes in my mind. IF ONLY i can speak to the higher self and in return get an answer probably i wouldn't need to waste the time, energy and emotions pondering and wondering. Then your brain have the do the hard work of telling your heart... 'hey, its ok... you're stronger than yesterday' but somehow your heart just hardened and fell on deaf ears(if any) if you don't often coerce or manipulate it. well maybe its nicer to say 're-program' it. oh how i wish the heart is like Microsoft windows and there's the 'ctrl+alt+del' function!
Posted by ZayS at 12:13 AM