Monday, December 29, 2008
E.O.Y= End Of Yesterday.
Fear, Loneliness, Depression.
It's all I'm feeling facing the year end.
It feels as if the world is going to end.
I'm so afraid to move on.
So scared of whatever's waiting for me in the future.
I don't understand why I'm feeling like this.
What a freak! Urgh.
Posted by ZayS at 5:42 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
Awful Weekend
The weekend was tearful.
Sat night ended up crying to sleep coz of parents squabbles.
Wonder will I unfortunately end up like them.
I had a bad dream & cried in my sleep...
That mom was dead. (touchwood!)
Woke up still crying & went to look for mom in her room.
To my relief there she was just out from the washroom.
I hugged her and cried very hard.
She thought I had a problem with something.
I struggled in my breathe to tell her in between sobs.
After that I lay on the bed beside her.
My head still spining & desperately needed to sleep.
But I didn't dare to and we talked quite long...
I suddenly feel hungry and she suggested following her to market & have breakfast out.
I'm still exhausted from the dreadful weekend with no rest that i fell sick today...
Now my eyes are still swollen and darker rings forming.
My face look haggard and pale like I'm dead.
Posted by ZayS at 6:06 PM
Monday, December 08, 2008
Rebel Grrrl
lived in silence before...
couldn't stand it anymore...
urge of retaliation surfaced...
stronger than ever...
the monster finally escaped...
after being contained in for very long.
Posted by ZayS at 12:26 AM