Thursday, July 31, 2008
young and vulnerable
Ive to get a F**kin' grip of myself!
There's more important things to think about!
*Inhale*... *Exhale*(deep breathes)
Calm down...calm down... nobody's here to help except yourself...
I keep having this monologue playing over and over today.
Don't know what triggered the chaos in me...
Shit happens... and I need to learn self-motivation!
I mean who the f*** really gives a shit of whats going on with your life?
Everyone have their own shits
I seriously need bitching session.
obviously not much time for that
This chemical reaction in my brain needs stabilising
where's my pills!? Arrgghhh
Posted by ZayS at 11:40 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
gloomy day
Gloomy Day.
Is it time for me to go into the *well?
So many questions in my mind.
So little chance to find the answers.
Something's troubling me.
I can feel it in my veins.
But what exactly it is?
Remains a mystery.
Is it the rain?
Rainy days makes me gloomy.
Even so, i shouldn't flare at the slightest things;
Right?
Why then am I feeling insecure?
Enjoy the present, awaits future's mystery & forget history.
Which I was for awhile...
Until everything downs on me suddenly:-
(DISTORTED THOUGHTS)
The decision-making (of every major step - career, education, marriage...)
The fear (of throwing my life & future with wrong steps taken)
The no-sense of fulfilment (doing something of no interest- career,education)
The Insecurity (Myself, love, family, friends, finances)
#
Winning Over Worry - I've read it once and understood it,
but to put it in actions... - "It's easier said than done."
*well - here means when a woman is going through a wave, her emotions up and down... when she's deep down in the well, she tends to be emotionally overwhelmed and needs to be listened. (knowledge from
Men are from Mars, women are from Venus, Dr. John Gray)
Posted by ZayS at 12:18 PM