Thursday, May 29, 2008

Sick is Sickening!

I am so sick and tired of being SICK!

Last few weeks had a major breakdown. It started with flu... then all the other virus merrily join it. Down with high fever and cough, which took more then a week to recover, until I had stomach flu as I was about to recover. 2 weeks of hopelessness.

Fully recovered now but at the wrong step I easily got back some of the illnessed, mostly vomiting. I am so frigin pissed that I'm having these illnesses that I don't what caused them. It made me worried, anxious, depressed, cranky and all these are affecting my everyday life. Best yet, I've tried all frigin kinds of drugs and supplements to the point that I feel are too much for my body to handle! I don't even know which one works!! I haven't been able to perform at work and kept missing my classes. I don't know what to do anymore. And it seemed that I have so little time to even seek professional help. I've been having throbbing headaches, retching once in a while, stomach bloatedness, nausea, trouble sleeping(hopefully not insomnia), etc.

Previously my main problem would be prone to cold/flu, but now it's gone a notch(or a few) higher! I feel that I can't operate anymore... I feel fatique quite often and these all have taken a toll on my social life. No doubt I tend to over-scheduled myself sometimes to the extend that my body system 'overworked' itself. But when I see other young people I know, they seem to be able to cope well with improper rest so it should be normal for me to be able to do more things.. because there's so much things to do and so little time and energy. Maybe I'm abnormal or maybe I'm bad at managing my time or whatever my problem is. I can't even chat online til late hrs anymore without feeling like a granny! I think my granny were more sporting than I am now. Maybe because I haven't been really exercising or practice a healthy lifestyle and it makes me even more depressed that my "spare-tyres" are getting bigger and my pants getting tighter by the day. Argh!

How I wish I have all the time in the world to do what I have passion in(ARTS) and just live in peace without being 'rat-raced' every single day.

Posted by ZayS at 12:03 PM