Tuesday, February 24, 2009

icing on the cake

23 Feb 09, 2100-2400 hours


The night when we professed to each other...
It was when my cloudy mind became clear...
I thought it wouldn't ever come so i didn't bother...
But we had to hear each other's voices even longer...

It is a bittersweet situation...
Full of courage and anticipation...
As we took the risk towards salvation...
To cherish the wonderful feelings without any invasion...

Now left the choices we have to make...
And brace everything that we can take...
As to whether this hidden love we can fake...
Just like the icing on a cake...

Posted by ZayS at 2:14 PM

Monday, February 23, 2009

the breakdown

Im headed for a breakdown...
as good things come to an end...
im hurt once again...
i hate playing this game...
full of risks and uncertainties...
how i wish there's a shortcut to all this...
then perhaps i can meet my happily ever after...
that is if it would ever ever ever happen.

What a curse i am to myself...
if only i can unwind time...
i would reverse till when i was a foetus...
when the soul being blown to me...
while God made a promise of my faith to him...
but how betraying ive been...
if i could forsee whatever happen now...
i would have told him then i wish that He take my soul back.

Posted by ZayS at 2:46 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Dilemma

Its been a tough few weeks of decision...

But have been great!

Getting to know this easy-going bunch of ppl had been an eye-opener...

Gave me an insight of what's going on in the heads of the opposite gender... So that I can finally understand(or atleast try to understand!) why they do what they do. Hah!

So these peeps are fun... as friends!

Until.... It gets a little bit.... should I say complex?

One of the trio professed his love for me.... I must say it was a 1-way ticket at that point of time... and still is a week aft that...

He seemed determined to the extend of coming all the way to my office to have lunch with me, given his busy work schedule. Even ride all the way to my house to chill at the void-deck... Haha how funny when I think back... Well that was only for the 1st 2 weeks? Coz' it doesn't seem worth the sleep sacrifice. So, it went downhill after that- which is last week. Even lesser calls. Funny how busy he could get earlier on but still managed to find time and lately the excuse was, "I'm busy with work".

The dilemma for me was being in contact with his good friend and somehow we just clique better... He's funny and caring and keep in touch with me every single day and I just can't help but to compare with the 1st guy. This guy made me laugh and feel good of myself... and he does try to profess to me too... that's why the dilemma.

It's the battle of the Head and the Heart. Pfft!

So I'm confused and that didn't help much in decision-making!

Posted by ZayS at 4:19 PM