Wednesday, August 27, 2008

~un-loverble

here i met Mumble
it was not a stumble
we sat and chew gum into bubble
and listened to my ipod shuffle!

Psst...well its actually an ipod nano but I can't help but to rhyme it! I love rhymes! Hahaha!

Posted by ZayS at 3:49 PM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

the day it ended

It was midday when it happened... I'm surprised at myself at how high my EQ was(compared to usual days). Perhaps I had been careful not to be in too deep after previous episode... And also perhaps I felt I've made the right choice with no regret. Well, it was abit sad though because we had so much fun togather... Atleast there's more happy memories than bitter ones. It's more than the fun that I'm searching for... And we're just not meant to be after all. Too much conflicts of interests and principles. I believe that God had this arranged so that I can learn something out of it. I feel wiser & much more in control of myself now. My heart told me I had to put an end to it before I get hurt again. It's better now than later. I felt a sense of relief... Relieved from the burden of wasted thoughts and questions. The euphoria sets in the moment I had closure. Made it so much more easier to move on compared to the last. I've learnt to be more observant of the warning signs because I had been ignorant. We met on Friday the 13th(and I'm not superstitious but it turned out to be more than mere coincidence). I can be a curious cat too at my own risk... But I find always that IGNORANCE IS A BLISS!

Flames to Dust...
Lovers to Friends...
Why do all good things come to an end?

ps: I'm glad I didn't hastily hand over the Love Poem I composed purely from my heart. :)

Posted by ZayS at 11:17 PM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

L.O.V.E

What does Love really means?
I thought it means sacrifice.
To sacrifice is to give up your selfishness.
Yet, these four letter words are often misconstrued.

Who knows what Love really means?
I would love to know what it look, sound, hear like.
Millions are confused between Love and Lust.
So, who do I go to for advice?

When will I understand the true meaning of Love?
I know patience is a virtue, but time is running out as well.
If I am immortal, I don't think it would be much of a problem.
Then again, I've heard stories that even immortals can't find true love.

How can I be worthy of true Love?
I looked around me and see all sorts of Love.
Displays of affections like holding hands, to kissing.
Is that all necessary to portray what that's called Love?

So, now the real question is, does true Love exist?

Posted by ZayS at 4:37 PM

a maybe-sayonara

It was a magnificent sight last night at the Esplanade Outdoor Theatre!
Yet, my so-called dear weren't even there with me to share the moment.
It's because his female ex-colleague had a BBQ at Pasir Ris & he felt bad if he didn't go.
It surprised me that he would not feel bad leaving me in the lurch. Thank goodness my girlfriend joined me. Or I would be a lame loner watching Addy Cradle's performance and catching fireworks.
Well he didn't even apologized when I told him I'm dissapointed, sad and annoyed that he puts his friend's (who's not even close to him) feelings 1st then me... even text that he knew he made the right decision(like wtf!). I tried to understand but he also have to try to put himself in my shoes right? Wrong! So i'm guessing this is it. This is enough to show that he wouldn't sacrifice for me and means there's no love... I'm quite reasonable to let him go even though unwillingly... other's would just be mean and irrational.. after much discussion with these more experienced girls, they gave similar reaction and conclusion. I'm still filled with uncertainty. Well only time will tell.

Posted by ZayS at 3:21 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

A.W.E.S.O.M.E WEEKEND

LAst weekend was Fabulouso!
LUrve it on Sat
LurVe it on Sun...

BUT BLOODY HaTe it on Mon! (Mon blues+PMS = CRANKY+EXHAUSTION)

Niwaes, I prefer to dwell on the weekends. hehe

Now.. for the summarized details... ;p

Sat Night : Ninie's 22nd Burstday Bash @ the Downtown East Chalet.
(cum National Day Celebration). Hop to Zul's family chalet @ Aranda Country Club.
Ate and Ate and Ate and Cam-whore and Talk-Cock! Teeheehee!

Sun Aftnn: Ex-ITE class picnic @ East Coast Park. Was a frigin 3hrs plus journey from home! My Ass might have expanded from siting too long in the bus. Worst, alighted at the wrong frigin' stop! Ergh! Ended up cabbing from Carpark E to C which was surprisingly far. (was ambitious to actually walk!) Well, it was Worth it! It was FUN playing the 'Om chucky Om' game... and eating of coz' and cam-whoring and the UNO game(played it during sec sch the last time!)

Sun Night: went to Kenduri... say hello to everyone, went to the toilet, watched a few minutes of 'Azura' and then had to go off coz need to hitch a ride with uncle who's staying near my plc. I'll die if I were have to travel all the way from paris Ris to Sembawang via public. By the time I reached home at 10.30pm, I was deadbeat but still stuck to watch 'Azura' and finally lights off at 11.30pm. Still, I was tossing and turning! Can't sleep with so many things running thru my mind! sheesh! So, was Zombified at Work on Mon & I was sumhow feeling depressed 'bout sum 'tings'(explains why I hate it.)

NOW I can't wait for this coming SAT!! heehee