Sunday, December 12, 2010
ive tis strong urging desire to juz b sumplc new & leave all e familiar behind. i nid to b on my own. n since loneliness is the only way ive ever known it shld b sumtin ive to experience. ive to make it happen or i'd be another 'productive' convo. other ppl ard me r progressing fast except me. N tho i very much am glad for them, its only making my esteem lower. even tho nobody mention it im sure that everyone ard me is annoyed by my 'sad stories'(1 of my closest gf for instance). its time to be independent, to be free, to b happy. I feel lyk i owed e folks too much. n im juz afraid i'd cum to e pt wen i wont be able to provide for them coz of my underachievements. i hate the fact dat i stil am 'under their wings' n still sharing my burden instead of joy. May the upcoming new year b filled with new beginnings n achievements so its easier to delete the past n move on. May 'HAPPY new year live up to its name'.
Posted by ZayS at 10:59 PM