Wednesday, December 15, 2010
answered questions... finally.
there's without doubt 1 question still in my mind though most questions which had been pondering in my head for so long was answered. what is love exactly? what's the definition and why is it so great that people are willing to go through it even if it means torture?
As for the answered questions, I'm still uncertain if the news was a happy or sad one for me. Perhaps it's both. Happy because i'm finally let in the truth behind those riddles and games. Sad because it seemed that my feelings were unaccounted for. Either way i'm grateful to Allah who had answered my prayers and lift this load of burden off my chest. I must say, I'm part relieved that what I had somewhat believed from my instinct was true . Now the question is, do I regret or was it worth all the waiting and agonizing? Because I've let away all the chances I had in order to move on just because of my stubbornness to stay true to my feelings.
The anxiety that i'm having for the new year is also partly affecting my vision for the future. But i know i should Tawakallillah. Leave it in His hands as He knows best. So on my part I should not think too much and just live life fullfillingly. Set my focus right and stay rooted & strong. Now that's the start for the new year resolution list. May He guide this lost soul. Amin.
Posted by ZayS at 11:44 AM