Friday, October 08, 2010
a letter to granny....
Dear granny, I miss you. Tonight I just reminisce of the good old past, time spent during my childhood and adolescent at your warm, cozy home in Bishan. Though I can still visit that same house, since there's aunt and uncle there, the atmosphere is just cold and unappealing as compared to when you were around -which made every little thing perfect including your presence. I've lost count the many times i dreamt of you and everytime I wonder if only I hadn't thrived for that stupid job and left it way earlier so I wouldn't be too exhausted and have time to spend with you when you are really ill. And the night you got critical, I regretted not being there for you. If I knew you were missing me during your last moments, and kept asking the maid where was I and why I hadn't come to visit for quite long(I recalled the last was when you were hospitalised and I had difficulty to get off during work until I just broke down and cry in public before the in-charge lets me off out of compassion.) because I was stupidly occupying myself with other things except you. I'm so sorry. I truly regret and sad that I hadn't even spared a sec to pick up the phone and dial you number. Why didn't you just call me? Why did you tell the maid that you didn't want to disturb me as I'd be busy when she offered to dial my number for you? Why? If I had known... now this vital piece of information still haunts me after your passing. I didn't even get to hear your last words when you finally came ard after unconsiousness because you were so weak with all that stupid machines around and sticking to your fragile body. It pains me to see you in that state, it still does till today and i'd cry my eyes out whenever I go back to memory lane. And when I see you in my dreams, I wish I can talk to you about anything though it is warm enough to just see at you. My prayers will be there for you and I know you'd remind me when your soul come by to see me when i'm too occupied in this temporary world. And thank you for being part of my life. I love you granny.
Posted by ZayS at 12:52 PM