Wednesday, September 22, 2010
"We are what we are because we have been what we have been." - Sigmund Freud
How true! Indeed what I am today is what I had gone through. The low esteem, indecision, sensitivity, emotions and hardships - All contributes to what I am now. Its the survival of the foetus. Though I was told It was a miracle that I manage to survive as an infant. I'd probably break down and cry out of gratitude that i was chosen to see the world. this world full of good and also full of evil. But after the knowledge that dying as an infant means having a guaranteed place in heaven, I really felt like breaking down and cry every single day for the rest of my life. not literally of course. sins and good deeds. like the libran symbol of balance, i think im 50-50. I wish i could weigh more of the good... but I know my stand. as the evil relinquish i could only feel remorse at the sins ive committed that comes with no guarantee i can reach the heavens. ive yet to survive in this world, what else thereafter. I can be pessimistic and say "Ouh! I'm doomed!" or be optimistic and say "Thank you God for letting me live another day to atone my sins". But what if you just are controlled by what the world have become? and the same cycle repeats. And it becomes a routine that had-to-be-done. Well of course, unless you found enlightenment and change. As they say, "change is the only constant". Just a matter of changing to good or bad.
Posted by ZayS at 11:36 AM