Tuesday, September 28, 2010
nobody but me.
I've come to realise nobody will be there for you at your most needy period. Nobody knows but me. Not friends, not even family. Everyone have their own businesses to mind. The only friend you have during your darkest period is probably you and God. But of course physically it's just YOU. YOU are your own friend, YOU are your own enemy. I've never been my own friend, so i'm very much dependent on others for assertiveness, assurance, comfort, etc. But I have to accept the fact that i'm Alone. I will be Alone when i'm 7- feet under sooner or later. So I guess its a test God wants me to go through. It's just that it can be difficult to be your own enemy. Suicidal thoughts are frequent. But I should be glad i'm not that impulsive and am not really insane to do the deed. Or I would have been dead by now. I'm also glad I've been 'trained' to be a loner since i was a child. Now that's seeing the situation from 'a glass half-full' point of view! I should pat my back now...
Posted by ZayS at 5:48 PM