Saturday, September 11, 2010
Home where i should belong . . .
HOME.
They say home is 'where I belong'.
I regret to say I don't.
Yes, I'm attached to home - literally.
I'm calm and sane when I'm home - alone.
I'm sick and tired of the fights, of the bickerings,
of the profanities, of the shoutings, of the criticisms,
and most intolerable of all - of the mess.
Appreciation is rare, apologies rarer.
Comparisons are frequent, blamings are often.
I feel incomplete & empty inside, envious of others' families.
As much imperfections there are in this beautiful home,
I cannot imagine being elsewhere and am grateful for their existence.
Although there are times I wish I could just vanish from their lives,
I'm still very much dependable on them.
Though there are 'picture perfect' moments,
I always pray they would last as I know deep inside they won't.
Till this day however, it's very evident that things would remain.
I can only accept, tolerate and play peacemaker;
and of course silently pray there will be a saviour one day -
perhaps a guardian angel (how cliche it may sound).
All I'm left with is hope . . .
Hope that there will one day be peace and harmony in this home.
Amin.
Posted by ZayS at 3:07 AM