Monday, September 06, 2010
Hate.. and Love.
More and more the hatred grew...
I hate them for using me.
I hate them for doing things that I hate.
I hate them for not appreciating my deeds.
I hate them for causing me to hate myself.
I hate them for the monster I have become.
I hate them for raking up my past mistakes.
I hate them for making me feel un-belonged.
I hate them for my growing wrath towards them.
I hate them for making me suffer and feel alone.
I hate them for blaming me for whatever that's beyond my control.
Hate the fact that they don't understand me and why I do the things I do when their blood flows in mine.
Deep inside I know, my love for them are real that I had and will sacrifice for them.
Deep inside I know, whenever my heart breaks for them it's hard to patch up and heal.
Deep inside I know, I am imperfect no matter how much I try to be perfect for them.
Deep inside I know, I have nowhere else to go and they are the best thing I've got.
Deep inside I know, they love me even though they don't know how to show it.
Deep inside I know, I feel responsible for them even if they don't think so.
Deep inside I know, if I am non-existent, it's one less hassle for them.
Deep inside I know, I know that I am too dependent on them to leave.
Deep inside I know, I am a disappointment to them and to myself.
Deep inside I know, when I hurt, I hurt for the love for them.
Deep inside I know, these tears flows for the love for them.
But deep inside, I know that all this hatred are just the effect of our daily life.
The hectic, stress and exhaustion which makes people angry and hate each other.
Posted by ZayS at 9:24 AM