oh gosh! am i falling deeper? its kinda scary... is this for real? if i follow my heart will it tear again? bt i tink im ready... tho i nid alot of work... overcoming insecurity... clearing doubts... trusting the other... pls God show me a sign... is he the right one?
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"close my eyes but cant escape this feeling ur voice is so gentle and tis fire takes me higher abit of desire i jz cant deny oh wont u come a lil bit closer and be mine" (TGSE-Class 'A' Love Affair)
Posted by ZayS at 3:31 PM
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Falling for you
Met him the second time last night coz he's flying off to Jakarta for Work Training for a few days... Fetched me ard 9pm to catch Inglorious Basterds at AMK... came back and had a long nice chat... he's different from the rest ive so-called dated i guess... and quite wise, matured and experienced enough that i can look up to him for advice and learn from his history.. we part even though its a hard one we had to coz i had work and worst for him had to be at the airport at 5am.... i miss him alrd... hope its mutual... sigh.
Posted by ZayS at 5:34 PM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
What's right isnt always popular & what's popular isnt always right : In another context/interpretation(according to mine), being different(unique) or even having a great mind different frm the rest doesnt mean its wrong... In fact it does take a lot of courage and risk to be different. Its perceptual thinking... bcoz the majority is against ur thoughts/ actions coz they perceived its wrong... and ure doom to follow them coz u thot " well since majority thinks so, i must be wrong". And there u go creating a grave mistake in your life decision... coz u'll just tend to live miserably and doing something against ur own will, sacrificing your passion and interests - just to make 'them' happy. Then guess wad?? for the next 'couple of years' you regret and there's alot of 'What ifs' and 'i should haves'. So sometimes its good to have your own mind and thoughts without being influenced by others. Even though community(family members, relatives, friends,etc) is always 'ready' to stick their noses and determine your life path. Do What u tink is right, follow your heart, heck what other's say... how i wish i did dat. But Everybody make mistakes thats y deres erasers on pencils. And i guess ive learnt from it and try not to be hasty in my decisions...
Posted by ZayS at 5:22 PM
Saturday, September 12, 2009
This is dedicated to those who have lost their love or having one-way love. Love is abundance... just up to you to own it or not... though some things just cant be controlled... and shit always happen... so you just have to flush it down everytime.
Note for my dearest lil' cousin : We all have regrets in life... don't let this regret be your weakness but develop into a strength instead... he's not the only one who can give you love... alot others are giving you love and in return need yours too... like your family & friends... know that you're not alone... there'll always be setbacks but when we fall, that's when we are most wisest and that will help us make better life decisions in future. So cheer up darlin 'coz i feel wad u feel.
*Hugs & Kisses*
Posted by ZayS at 10:49 AM
Friday, September 11, 2009
Whimsical Euphoria
You make me fall for you No matter how I deny I refuse to admit That I’m falling for you
Now that you noticed I feel embarrassed Oh why don’t you just say it? Instead of going around in circles
You make me smile Don't know how you do it Everything about you is whimsical Only I can tolerate it seems
But I guess what I’m feeling Has no explanation For love is blind And crazily bizarre
I’m so afraid of the outcome If the past histories repeat So why wont you assure me? That you’ll stay no matter what
Often you came into my dream I don’t feel like waking up Just to see your face Your cheeky smiley face
Your voice is deeply appealing Your laugh is electrifying Your hair swept across your face Feels like running them through my fingers
Though we’ve only met once The power of technology Enable us to connect deeper Making my heart beat faster
Still recall how we met And chatted at the bridge Like there’s no tomorrow While the moon witness us
This is insane I hate it when you don’t contact Coz’ just seeing your messages Took my blues away
Posted by ZayS at 5:40 PM
Friday, September 04, 2009
sorrow
my chest felt compressed choking back these tears feeling so oppressed from fulfillment all this years
remorse, regret, sorrow wish another life i could follow if not i'd rather borrow than living in my world so narrow
my heart is palpitating like a bad case of heartburn my head is exploding feels like a 360 degree turn