Thursday, August 06, 2009
Companionship...
I need a companion.
Since life hadn't been very nice to me, I need someone to be nice to me.
Pamper me with love, give undivided attention, understand whatever is going through this complicated mind, just listen when I've to vent frustration and still look at me and smile to melt all those negative feelings...
But, it is not easy for me to find the right one...
Even though there alot of them befriending me to get to the next level...I couldn't let them in my emotions which is fragile due to past break-ups. And even though I've moved on, it isn't easy for me to let any new man in... and I will have to end up breaking their heart for just not accepting them as more then a friend.
My dear girlfriend is getting married and seeing her getting excited and being happy just touched my heart. It downed on me if I will ever get to experience the once in a lifetime moment. To be prepared to give a hundred percent commitment and trust the rest of your life entirely to a guy and not depending on your parents anymore. So marriage is a big step and I think for me would be the biggest panic I'll ever have to make such a decision.
So for now... shouldn't I just be focused on finding the right one? Its just that it's tiring to find or even wait. Tired because it's always blur ahead.
Posted by ZayS at 2:42 PM