Monday, August 24, 2009
I am feeling heavy inside... It must have been the commitments that i have... and i cant seem to stop just because i wanna do so much. Like playing in a band again, trying out modelling, etc and im still not 100 percent committed to my vinyl designs side project with my friends. At the same time i wanna improve spiritually. And i feel i have to go back to my introvert ways and im so used now to be surrounded by people that im feeling a sense of lost when im alone or not having any social activities. I'm not even happy with my job... but what have I done to make a change? I just need some guidance and motivation i guess... I don't think i can face anything alone with my instability. Are there such things as friends forever...? They seem to leave one by one to a brighter future and commitments of companionship too. If only i get to do something i really am interested in like painting and not working full time, i think i would not be as miserable...sigh.
Posted by ZayS at 1:29 PM