Sunday, August 09, 2009
08-08-09
My good friend of close to 10 years just got married. Ct Myra is georgeous in her wedding suit and no doubt so is Azzrie. They make an ideal couple... knowing them for so long, they are my idol of a perfect couple. Yesterday had been an ultimate experience for me as well as getting to share the special day with them. It was very meaningful to me... to the extent that I actually forwent my own relative's wedding invitations and missing gathering with cousins and relatives. I missed them but I'm glad I'll be meeting my cousins for family gathering and 'kenduri' later.. so not too bad. Well I just felt the need to stay at Ct's to help as much and make the event perfect for the couple. It is also like a mini reunion of my ex-teachers and schoolmates.
It was a mix feeling I have... Joy that she is married to her true love and faith she'll be in good hands... Sadness and fear that things won't be same again... like impromptu dinner meet-ups and swimming sessions and good old crazy fun. And I actually gathered all courage and braved myself to sing them a rock Malay song in front of an audience! Was all for love for Ct. Even though I was shaking badly inside and even felt the microphone shaking in my hands, I fought my all to not falter to make it a memorable one for her... but I felt really bad that I didn't do it perfectly with some cock-ups... but I hope she wouldn't mind.
As I left last evening with a heavy heart, and trying hard to control the urging tears from flowing... I broke down uncontrollably the moment I reached home and stepped into my room. Feeling bad that I might not do a good job on mending the guest book and didn't sang perfectly for her. Ignoring the giddiness and throbbing headache, I cried and cried. Even so tired and just feel like sleeping, I finally fought and went to shower to get ready for the next invitation which is Linie's birthday celebration and her cousin's engagement. I was alone and not feeling well doesn't help either. I asked to leave and come back. I popped some meds and when my sis came back, we went down again to meet Linie and her cousin... took some pics and chatted for a while before retiring the day. Was tossing and turning on my bed last night before getting to fall asleep. Unexpectedly my mind's up early at dawn today even though desperate for a good rest. Just couldn't sleep despite the throbbing headache and still emotional... recapping past activities.
Though it had been very exhausting for me last few days... being with her on the last nights before she becomes a whole new woman, was worth it. I hope she is happy with how the wall decals turned out and the guest book and also my singing. It wasn't as easy mending the guest book when there's a big crowd and had to mend it all by myself at one point of time while withstanding the killing pain on my feet with the heels, but of course it was all worth for Ct's sake. She had been a very good loving friend, offering me to be there for me during the low points of my life... and always had fun hanging out with her and other friends with all the crazy talks. I have always admired her since back in secondary school days. Not only for her external, but internal beauty as well. The good-nature heart of hers... her patience and strength, forgiving soul, and always filled with love for others. She is very fortunate to have loving, supportive parents and siblings and now a good, funny, loving husband. And I pray for her a very blessed and blissful marriage life and thereafter. Amin.
Posted by ZayS at 7:32 AM