Tuesday, June 03, 2008
P e s s i m i s m K I L L S !!!
Being pessimistic have always been effortless for me. It was as if I was born with the curse. Those who have known me for quite some time wouldn't completely agree with my previous sentences.
Whenever I'm in my high state, I tend to be a clown. But I could change my mood the very second I became a clown. See what I mean. I'm complicated. I hate the way I am even though I'm learning as much to love myself.
"Love yourself before you can love others"
- this phrase have been haunting me. I am guessing it is because I am not feeling any love from others, so how can I ever know what Love means? I just watched Sex In The City and in the middle of the show I feel that it's nonsensical for anyone to believe that love exist. However, towards the end of the show after all the heartbreaking situations, everyone have what they wanted -
Love. And I started to believe a teeny weeny bit. I came to a conclusion that Love only exist when someone truly believes in it.
See, if you are a positive person, no matter how much you are face negative aspects of life, you will tend to look on the bright side of life. On the contrary, being a pessimist, you will often have negative thoughts overpowering your mind in every single moment your brain is functioning. And naturally, human beings think alot. Just imagine that your every single thought is all the worst things that could ever happen! I observed that my thoughts will very much be influenced by my emotions. So, whenever I'm feeling angry or sad all these bad thoughts will conquer my mind and it's very hard for me to control it. It is a very serious problem I believe, for anyone. It isn't helping in achieving my goal towards developing self-positivy. I just need guidance and if love comes along with it, then, I BELIEVE I will be happy everyday. Just like Charlotte. For now, lets focus on kicking the habit of negativity.
Posted by ZayS at 12:06 PM