Tuesday, January 08, 2008

PMS or Depression???

OH DEARIE!

Feels like ages since i blogged geez! Alot happened. good and bad stuffs. The countdown to the New year was good clean fun. But last few days had been shit due to accumulating negative incidents that contributed to it. I was feeling shitty and uncontrollably emotional. sigh. Dat explained the puffy eyes! Feel so lethargic due to lack of sleep. My head felt heavy on and off. Im having ugly breakouts all over my face making me more stressed out than i already am! sigh. I just want to clear things to start the new year. Obviously some people misunderstood me. Im frigin dwelling on the stuffs that's troubling my mind 'coz i'm at lost of how exactly to act. I got different feedbacks from different people on how to react to the situation which got me more confused. Therefore, i am procrastinating with hope that miracle would happen. Bleargh...! I would buy lottery if that's the case! Chill... just kidding.

Last few days had been HELL for me. I felt so insecure, so confused & so... so... urgh! c'mon ppl help me out with the words! I can't even find any words that exactly matches my thoughts & feelings lately. I had been a "tear machine" like almost every night... and felt cranky often that i snapped at others out of the blue. That little bit of self-confidence was wrung dry from my soul... i felt dead during those moments. I felt a teeny bit betta when my tears dry on its own. My low-self esteem acting like killer bacteria eating up my insides. I wonder if all this is due to PMS, but then again my period is not here yet... and another possibility is depression... which i thought im over that stage, so it's quite worrying. Until just now, when i read a pamphlet in my office about depression. Here what it says :-

Depression doesn't mean you have a flawed character or aren't strong enough emotionally. It is not a sign of weakness. Sometimes, depression occurs even when life is going well. It is actually a medical condition that responds well to treatment.


Well maybe it's a teeny minor depression 'coz the symptoms aren't really tally... there's positive signs of PMS though...but wadeheck! I'm feeling betta now. Maybe b'coz i poured it out to zakky(Thx babe). It's actually not healthy to lock up your problems. well this may just apply to the ladies as told by the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus". I find it a good book btw.

Posted by ZayS at 3:10 PM